Annar in the Inbetweens

Awoke early today.

         yesterday, i ran to a flower store 4 blocks away, purchased roses. 
         attended a beautiful friend’s graduation— sobbed on the bus ride there.
         I was late. Afterwards, I broke into a classroom and sobbed hysterically.
         The janitor poked his head in. I gave an acknowledging nod.
         you see, I’m in love with someone that forgets
         that I’m madly in love with them.
         it hurts, you know. It has hurt for a long, long time.
         I don’t want to love him anymore,
         but I do, and will, always.
         I carry him in heart.

Awoke early today.

I will be venturing the city to purchase a gift for my closest friend.
I am considering walking the 20 blocks into the heart of the city.
These shoes will fall apart eventually.

I am wearing my floppy hat because it makes me feel invisible.
I like that feeling.

I will drink tea by the fountain, as I always do.
Perhaps this drought is over now, and the water will fall again.

I will bring Garbiel Garcia Marquez with me— for when I feel nervous and anxious and want to cry.

I hope Carl gets the chance to meet with me for coffee.
Coffee tastes better when Carl is there, and I owe him a beautiful poster.

I will write articles on the rooftop and leave my phone at home.

I will hopefully meet with Caro to give her a gift. She is the aforementioned friend.

I need to remember to stop by the train station while I pass through the city. I am still debating my Christmas plans, but I still like to pretend I might go someplace; I still like to pretend I might go home.